Marriage Moats-The Veil
Published: Wed, 09/29/10
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 She is looking out the window into her future. What does she see?What can anyone see of what lies ahead? We play with reading fortune cookies that tell us we will travel or inherit a small fortune. Sometimes we ask for a glimpse, like the trailer for a movie coming out next spring.
At a time in my life when I was slogging through "what is" trying to get to "what will be" I prayed for a sign. I prayed a long time. The reply came like a buoy, and I threw the thin tether of my hopes to it.
"It will be something bigger than you."
What did that even mean? My rescue vessel will be larger than me? It was slim pickings, but it was enough to keep me afloat.
Then it came. It was a female judge behind an imposing desk, looming above my head. Her presence and power felt ominous, and she turned the tide of my life to safer waters.
At another time of desperate petition to God, I begged for a sign that I could actually mother a special needs child.
"He will be carried along on the wave of your family."
Twelve years later, I still hear those words in my head, when our autistic son is thrashing out of control and his brother swoops in to calm him down. The other night I was failing to parent well and texted his sister.
"Want to rescue Ben from me?"
She arrived with fresh energy and took him out for ice cream. When she was beginning to head homeward, he suggested, "We could go to your house, if there's time."
It is exciting to look through the window into tomorrow. But I think there is a good reason for the veil.
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