Peter was caught in the cross fire. In the events leading up to the crucifixion the disciples scrambled for protection even as they left the table of the last supper.  Peter thought of himself as loyal, proclaiming his allegiance. But Jesus knew that this frail man would deny him thrice before the cock crowed.

 

I have my own private accusations about how short lived Peter's resilience was, but then I have never been in mortal danger. Then there is John. He is described as the disciple whom Jesus loved. Would that such an epithet would be carved on my own headstone. He was there too, as the world fell apart while Christ was captured, and betrayed. 

 

"And Simon Peter followed Jesus, and so did another disciple. Now that disciple was known to the high priest, and went with Jesus into the courtyard of the high priest.  But Peter stood at the door outside. Then the other disciple, who was known to the high priest, went out and spoke to her who kept the door, and brought Peter in. Then the servant girl who kept the door said to Peter, 'You are not also one of this Man’s disciples, are you?'" John 18

 

Yet John, who was known by the high priest, somehow was not under scrutiny. Why is that? 

 

Peter symbolizes our faith.

 

"And I also say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church." Matthew 16

 

John is often paired with him, and represents our loving response to what Jesus asks of us. It is fascinating that somehow love is impervious to the blame that hounds Peter. 

 

"Good never fights, no matter how much it is assailed, because it is gentle and mild, long-suffering and yielding, for its nature is that of love and mercy. But although it does not fight, it nevertheless conquers all."

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